February 26, 2015

Ant #308. Madonna at Brit Awards.

Superhuman, triumphant, living icon, hero...

That's how tabloids all over the world called Madonna after her epic performance at Brit Awards last night. But it wasn't only epic because of the show itself. She took a tumble...

It was one of the most heartbreaking moments in my life. My heart stopped when her dancers pulled her cape (as it was obviously planned) and she fell downstairs along with it. And I almost cried when I saw how this little fragile woman got up, put herself together and continued the ‪show‬. And she killed it all! Who even remembers there was a ceremony? Everyone talks about Madonna!

One of my friends posted on Facebook that suddenly he remembered one "Sex & the City" episode where Carrie Bradshaw fell on runway. So did I.
Here it is... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mDOdrcV5dfs

And that moment Carrie thought: "I had a choice – I could slink off the runway and let my inner model die of shame, or I could pick myself up, flaws and all, and finish. And that’s just what I did. Because when real people fall down in life, they get right back up and keep on walking."

There's no one to blame for what happened. I think it's a fault of many people: of a designer/costumer who didn't make a velcro for the cape, of dancers who didn't notice she wasn't ready and pulled her down, of choreographers who decided that the cape should be taken off while she's on stairs (if she was standing on the floor she wouldn't fall, or at least not that hard), and of course of her own, coz in the end she's an artist and she's responsible.

But after all Madonna is a human being too. Shortly she posted on her Instagram.

She didn't cry, she didn't look for compassion like some singers always do, victimizing themselves, she smiled and said she was "fine"! She proved once again that she has a right to be called ‪Queen Of Pop‬, she's the biggest professional in the music industry, she's a ‪‎showgirl‬, and she knows that ‪"Show Must Go On"‬.

I still feel said for what happened, but we all fall sometimes, literally or metaphorically. ‪Love‬ her even more now!

P.S. Smile of a real triumphant! God bless you Madonna! ^_^

February 24, 2015

Ant #307. Interactions classified by mechanism.

Oh, it's so about human beings.
Interactions classified by mechanism:
The term symbiosis (Greek: living together) can be used to describe various degrees of close relationship between organisms of different species. It is used only for cases where both organisms benefit.
Competition can be defined as an interaction between organisms or species, in which the fitness of one is lowered by the presence of another.

Source: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Biological_interaction#Interactions_classified_by_mechanism

February 20, 2015

Ant #306. Hospital.

So how was it?
Two days ago I felt a bit strange. I couldn't really describe what happened, but I felt like a dead battery.
Yesterday I woke up, do some home work and went out. After one meeting and short walk across the city I went to the monastery (my fav place) to drink a coffee and then went home.  Here I felt bad...

It was burning in my chest and seemed like someone grabbed my organs tight. And because I never experienced and heart or stomach or any other problems, so I thought it was a heart attack! From being sick physically I went to being sick emotionally. It turned into a panic attack, coz I didn't understand what was it and I knew that if I faint nobody calls to emergency (I live alone). I decided not to call them for myself and go directly to hospital, I didn't want to stay home alone. Just in case, I put in my back bag my documents, phone charger, took some money, and in 3 minutes I was in a taxi on my way to hospital.

First doctor appeared. A woman. I tried to explain how I felt, she started asking if I had a stress. I said I was ok. She called for the 2nd doctor. A man. He asked the same. Then they checked my pulse. It was perfect. They checked blood pressure. Perfect. The woman left, the man kept asking me if I was stressed recently, if I had stomach problem, if I vomited or not. I was "WTF? I'm having a heart attack! Why are you asking me this shit?"

The woman came back with a Electrocardiography machine and another one doctor. Another man. They checked my heart beating seriously. And haven't seen anything bad at all! The 3 rd doctor asked me if I ever had pancreatic issues and if I still have an appendix. He checked my whole body, it was painful nowhere. Checked and pushed a chest one more time, nothing, no pain at all.

All 3 were like "You're absolutely fine! It must be nerves. Did you receive bad news recently or break up with someone?" But I couldn't confirme anything. Anyway they kept saying it's all because of nerves which affect a pancreatic system.

And just to make sure they told me to check my chest on X-rays. I came back in a few minutes with images. All three + 1 new one doctors saw them and declared I was 100% healthy. It all turned into a joke, they couldn't make anything, while I kept feeling me not so good. The 4th doctor asked me what I ate during the day. I replied that almost nothing, I was about to cook when I felt bad and went to the hospital, I only drank a coffee and s small desert. He asked if I drink a lot of coffee? I confirmed that twice a day, more or less. He said "That's it! For the next 10 days, no fat or fried food, and NO COFFEE!" (which sounded horrible!!! Everyone knows I cannot live without coffee!). He gave me a receipt for some pills and let me go home.

Today I feel way better! But yesterday I was scared as f*ck! >_<

I'd like to thank all the doctors listening to my noise and to all of my friends who were worrying for me! I do appreciate it! Thank you!

February 17, 2015

Ant #305. First impression.

"When you meet a person for a first time, try to do your best, because you never get  a second change to make a first impression!"

That's what my professor of marketing  told me when I was in university.
Smart, isn't it?

I'd like to meet my clone to see what impression I make.
I hope it's not that bad.

February 14, 2015

Ant #304. Living For Love.

I read many comments about new Madonna's video, all the people seem to love it, but some of them were a lil bit confused with its aggression and violence. They said that the song itself is so bright, it's about getting stronger and not being disappointed, it's about believing in love.

Hard to disagree, but...

I feel something different. Yeah, it's a dance track, but lyrics sound bitter to me. I'm not sure if it's about interpretation or life experience. I guess anyone who was betrayed and thrown out even once, knows how painful it can be. You can survive, you can learn this lesson, you can get stronger and blah blah blah, but every break-up leaves a scar on your heart, if you have it and you truly loved. And it's good if you staying above the situation and not willing to revenge, but come on, I'd never believe that someone felt fine after all this shit.

Madonna sings, "I can forgive, but I will never forget." And you keep saying that the song is bright?