December 30, 2012

Ant #144. MDNA Tour: ENDless.

I hope it's not too late, coz I came home 3 days ago, but only now I found a few minutes to tell you how was it in South America!

Oh, South America: you've been hot and cold, crazy and relaxed, quick and long, you've been the best and the worst! You've been everything!
I got a huge experience! Last 4 shows gave me as many emotions as my previous 12!

My South American leg of MDNA Tour:

70+ friend requests on facebook,
50+ hours on planes at the skies,
45 minutes with no electricity during the last show,
40 hours of queuing before shows,
30 US dollars spent on calls to my bank asking them to block my stolen credit card,
8 hours of sleeping at the street the night before the show,
7 hours under the rain waiting for the show,
6 hours of dancing at afterparties,
4 cities (3 for shows and 1 for tourism),
2 countries,
2 business-lounges,
1 disappointment,
1 the end of the world,
1 bottle of wine drunk during the waiting for the end of the world,
1 found true bright love!


December 27, 2012

Ant #143. Where is the love?

I've always said that "people don't need to look for Love, Love will find you".


My Love found me, when I wasn't expecting anything.
It has very bright smile and charming eyes.
Its hands are so soft, I wish they could touch me everywhere.
But what's the most important is that its heart is so clean and beautiful, I can see its light even in the deep darkness. And when I'm putting my hands on it, it starts beating a million beats per minute.

But where is my Love? On the other side of planet? No, it's here in my heart!

Ant #142. Buenos Aires - Madrid - Moscow.

09:55 pm (Argentinian time): Told him good-bye, burst in tears.
10:25 pm: Take-off.
01:05 am: I see flashes in the window. Thunder!

04:15 am: Whoops! I've just waken up!
04:45 am: "Tell me what can I do? I'm so in love with you! Youuuuuuu thrill me!"... Confessions Tour is so nice at the skies )))
08:05 am: Sh*t! I slept almost the whole flight!

Spanish skies
03:45 pm (Madrid time): Boarding time. Next stop - Moscow. Whoops! )))
04:10 pm: The plane is full of russians. They are very noising! >_<
04:40 pm: 20-mins-long delay.
06:35 pm: We have just change a board. Dooooooh! It means I won't come home earlier than 3 am.
06:45 pm: Take-off in 3... 2... 1... Hasta luego, España!
01:45 am (Moscow time): I'm dead. F*cking welcome!

December 11, 2012

Ant #141. Moscow - Madrid - Buenos Aires.

04:00 am. I haven't slept at all.
05:00 am. Idiotic taxi driver! Where is he?
06:15 am. Fine, I'm at the airport, went through the passenger control. Coffee!!!
07:55 am. Good-bye, Russia!
10:05 am (EU time). WHOOPS! I'm in Madrid! ))) Hola, España! )
10:50 am. I have to change somewhere, it will be too hot in jeans )))
11:10 am. I feel much better in shorts! ^_^
11:25 am. Boarding time! Hasta luego, Madrid!
11:45 am. F*ck yeah! I'm sitting alone on 2 seats. I gotta lay down and try to sleep a lil bit. (Changed the time from EU to Argentinian).
10:10 am. Lunch time! Pasta smells good )))
12:15 pm. Watching Happy Tree Friends! Bloody hell! ^_^
12:20 pm. 8 hours in the skies ahead! It's shaking all the time!
01:35 pm. I fell asleep and woke up again.
03:40 pm. I have eaten a sandwich, it was nice. Almost 5 hours left.
04:50 pm. Doh! Why am I so nervous! My stomach is getting crazy!
06:25 pm. I've just watched a serbian movie "Lóve". Good story about how your past will always follow you, even if you wanna change. Think twice, don't make mistakes!
06:30 pm. It's good to be small, I can lay down on just 2 seats )))
07:10 pm. We're flying right above Porto Alegre. Is the stage still here? )))
08:05 pm. TURBULENCE!!!

December 9, 2012

Ant #140. Packing List.

Credit cards  
Madonna Tickets   
Booking Confirmations   
Second iPhone   
Hair Spray   
Madonna T-Shirts   
Shorts (for changing in Madrid)   
Extra-batteries for headphones   
Martin Solveig's headband   
Toilet water   
Good mood   
Best expectations   

*   *   *

My flight is less than in 12 hours! So thrilling!!! ^_^

December 7, 2012

Ant #139. Thank you!

In this world, in this life there is only one person who can always make me feel special!

We don't talk very often, last time we saw each other 3 years ago, but anyway we're very close spiritually.
I don't know how to describe it...
He knows how to take my breath away. With every single word...

Gosh, this sounds so gay! Sorry, guys )))
But I had to confess!

I'll see him again in 3 days and this thought makes me wanna fly, like butterflies in my belly...

Thank you, my friend, for being so kind to me!
I'm so grateful I met you! You are the best!

December 6, 2012

Ant #138. Ok, Georgia!

Well well well, guys!
I have to confess! I got crazy! )))))

The flag of Georgia
I'm gonna spend my winter holidays in Tbilisi, the capital of Georgia.
Georgia isn't a north american state, it's a country on the south of Caucasus Mountains.

I can't wait to go to the country of wine and freedom!

I've never been there before and I think that for a lot of people Georgia is kinda exotic place, isn't it?
That's why I'm double-excited! ^_^
I love strange places!

And for a few days my relatives (they are going there as well) and me are planning to go to the mountains for skiing that I also never did )))))
The place calls Gudauri. It's a small luxury city for those who love extreme sports.
I'm sure it will be very funny, I just hope to survive it all! ;-)

*   *   *
So... What are your plans for New Year holidays? Tell me!

December 1, 2012

Ant #137. World AIDS Day.

Today I've been on TV lecture about HIV.
Famous journalist that spent her youth in USA was talking about scary things: how they found first cases of strange previously unknown illness, how many of her gay-friends were dying one by one, how families were turning away from ill members, how people were demanding the right treatment...

Thanx God, people with HIV can live decades with modern medicines, but unfortunately not everywhere. In my country HIV means death. No one is gonna care of you if you have it. People with HIV cannot come out, cannot say about their illness even to their close friends, coz they think (and they are probably right) that people will turn away from them. This is terrible!

I have some friends with HIV, mostly from abroad, and I'm not afraid of sharing bed with them, of drinking a tea from one cup, of hugging them!

We all are human beings! We all are the same!

World AIDS Day

November 29, 2012

Ant #136. Black and white.

BLACK: My stalker has come back.

WHITE: In 10 days I'm going to South America.

BLACK: I think I've failed my exam today.

WHITE: My laptop is fixed after "epic flooding".

BLACK: I'm on a diet and haven't eaten any sweet more than a week.

WHITE: My New Year trip is confirmed, managed and booked! I'm going to Georgia. (to be announced soon!).

BLACK: I spent all my money and cannot pay for my institute. I'm a bankrupt.

WHITE:  It's snowing! ^_^


We all have black and white stripes in our lives.
And that's annoying!
I wish we all have only bright colorful stripes!

November 18, 2012

Ant #135. Multitasking.

Sometimes I wish I had 10 hands and 5 heads.
I try to be multitasking, but it's too hard for me.
I'm not talking about eating and watching TV at the same time, no. I mean situations when you have to resolve many problems quickly and effectively. And my brain simply refuse to function.
Now is exactly this f*cking time. I have to fix my laptop, to find money for upcoming trip, to think about New Year Eve, to do something with my sh*tty job and finally I have to sort out with my personal life. Heaven, help me!!!

I always wonder how people can do so many things all at once. 
I only can do one by one, or I'll f*ck up all of them. I need to be very concentrated on details, this is how I live. But now I don't have enough time. 
I'm not giving up, but the more my deadline is coming closer, the more I wanna say "F*ck it all" and run away. 

November 17, 2012

Ant #134. Epic fail.

Every time I think my life it getting better something happens to me.

Last night I spilled a tea (just a few drops) on my laptop, my pure MacBook Pro. I immediately grabbed a napkin and took all the liquid off. My device seemed working and I relaxed. But in 30 minutes the key "S" broke, then "shift". I ran away to bathroom and came back with a hair dryer. I wanted to dry the keyboard, but in a few second I saw that keys were melting! O_o
I almost started to cry! (((

I switched my mac off and fell asleep. At the morning I switched it on, but half of keys weren't working. I called to authorized service center, explain them a problem. They told me to come tomorrow with my laptop, they are going to diagnose it (for $100) and fix it ($300-1000 depending on what really broke). Fuuuuuuuuuuu....

What can I do now? Just pay. Damn it! (((((

Here it is.

November 9, 2012

Ant #133. MADONNA: the one and the only.

Yes, yes, it's another one post about my fav singer ever.
But this time I'm not gonna tell you about her current tour or her next singles.

Last months I've been reading many exciting articles about her (that's good) and also hateful comments below (that's bad).
They say:
- she's too old,
- she has to retire,
- she's talentless,
- she's nothing,
- she's desperate,
- she's irrelevant,
- she is in the past.

I just smile )))

I understand when people dislike something or somebody. It's their choice, their taste. For example, I don't like Rihanna and Lady Gaga. But even if the first doesn't have #1 album in US and the second sells her album for $0,99, it's silly to say they are "nothing". I admit that they both have a big success, but it doesn't change my opinion about them.
So I would like to hear something real from people, but not their stupid emotions based on a jealousy.

Let me show you some numbers. Not from her previous career, but from 2012.
Just a few facts!

MDNA (Deluxe Version)
1) MDNA album.

With only pre-order MDNA album became #1 in more than 50 countries and the biggest pre-order in iTunes history.
After its release in march it became #1 again in more than 40 countries.
With 12th #1 album in UK Madonna became the most successful solo-artist in the history of this country.

Super Bowl 46 Halftime Show
2) Super Bowl Halftime show.

It was her the only one promo-performance, but it was enough to remind everyone who is the Queen.
Madonna had the largest viewership for a Halftime Show in Super Bowl history and history of american television - 117,8 million viewers, 3 million more than the game itself.

MDNA Tour (Milan, Italy)
3) MDNA Tour.

It's absolutely obvious that MDNA Tour is set to be the most grossing tour of the year and one of the most grossing tours in history. Some numbers:
"Following the tickets sale opening, the tour created immense success at the box office and many venues were sold out. In Tel Aviv, 33,000 tickets for the first show at Ramat Gan Stadium were selling fast in the months previous to the premiere. Madonna's first ever show in Abu Dhabi had fans lined up in front of the Virgin Megastore for tickets of 24 hours before they went on general sale. All initial 22,000 tickets sold out in record-breaking one hour, prompting the promoter to add the second date there, which in turn sold out within a week. In Turkey, 47,000 tickets for the show in Istanbul sold out in four days. In the United States, 60,000 tickets for a show in Yankee Stadium, New York City sold out in 20 minutes, prompting Live Nation to add a second date. Tickets for the show in Kansas City sold out in 12 minutes, while the show in Houston sold out in less than an hour. In Canada, the concert at the Bell Centre sold 16,000 tickets in 20 minutes, along with the show at the Plains of Abraham, selling 65,000 tickets in one hour. In Ottawa, 15,000 tickets for the show in Scotiabank Place sold out in 21 minutes, becoming the fastest-selling concert in the arena's 16-year history, beating out previous record holder AC/DC in 2009. All available tickets for Madonna's first date in Amsterdam sold out in 30 minutes, prompting Live Nation once again to add a second date. In Colombia, 38,000 tickets for her first concert in Medellín sold exclusively during the pre-sale and remaining 2,000 tickets for the public sale sold out in three hours. Madonna's first show in Medellín sold out in a record breaking 15 hours prompting the promoter to add the second date there. 15,000 pre-sale tickets for the second Medellín date sold out. Madonna also sold more than 100,000 tickets in two days for three shows in Brazil."

You still think she's irrelevant?
I think she's more relevant than she's ever been!

But it absolutely doesn't mean you have to love her. I just ask you to stop being ignorant and show (at least) a lil bit respect to the woman who makes a history.

Thanx and have a nice day.

November 7, 2012

Ant #132. Exclusive.

I'm sure everybody likes to have something special, like hand-made knit socks, signed CDs or rare stuff.

Today I've received a very exclusive gift that was sent to me as a member of official Madonna fan-club.
It's a pink transparent vinyl with Madonna's previously unreleased song "Broken".

Take a look! ^_^

Madonna - Broken (vinyl)

Madonna - Broken (vinyl)

Madonna - Broken (vinyl)

In case you haven't heard the song, here it is )


UPD: Somebody has to make a gift to me! A vinyl player! ^_^

November 5, 2012

Ant #131. Wish-List.

So... It's 2 months till my birthday, so I'm gonna make a list of goods I'd like to receive. ^_^
Of course, I hope that Bill Gates will read this and buy/pay everything.
But also maybe somebody wanna make me the happiest boy in the world.

Ok, here I go...

★ ★ ★
1. Flight to New York.

★ ★ ★
2. Dinner with Madonna

★ ★ ★ 
3. Apartment in Buenos Aires (Pelermo, pls.)

★ ★ ★
4. Madonna tickets (Buenos Aires, Santiago and Cordoba)

★ ★ ★ 
5. This T-shirt (Buy here)

★ ★ ★ 
6. Any warm knit top.

★ ★ ★ 
7. P!NK tickets (Berlin, Hambug, Dusseldorf)

★ ★ ★ 

★ ★ ★
9. OSIS+ powder

★ ★ ★ 
10. Christal Champagne

★ ★ ★

Mmmmmm.... I'll add more items later )))

November 4, 2012

Ant #130. Le Petit Prince

"And at night you will look up at the stars. Where I live everything is so small that I cannot show you where my star is to be found. It is better, like that. My star will just be one of the stars, for you. And so you will love to watch all the stars in the heavens... they will all be your friends. And, besides, I am going to make you a present..." 
He laughed again. 
"Ah, little prince, dear little prince! I love to hear that laughter!"  
"That is my present. Just that. It will be as it was when we drank the water..."  
"What are you trying to say?"  
"All men have the stars," he answered, "but they are not the same things for different people. For some, who are travelers, the stars are guides. For others they are no more than little lights in the sky. For others, who are scholars, they are problems. For my businessman they were wealth. But all these stars are silent. You - you alone - will have the stars as no one else has them."  
"What are you trying to say?"  
"In one of the stars I shall be living. In one of them I shall be laughing. And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing, when you look at the sky at night... you - only you - will have stars that can laugh!"  
And he laughed again.  
"And when your sorrow is comforted (time soothes all sorrows) you will be content that you have known me. You will always be my friend. You will want to laugh with me. And you will sometimes open your window, so, for that pleasure... and your friends will be properly astonished to see you laughing as you look up at the sky! Then you will say to them, 'Yes, the stars always make me laugh!' And they will think you are crazy. It will be a very shabby trick that I shall have played on you..."

The Little Prince

I'm not sure if you know or not, but "The Little Prince" by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry is my favorite book ever.
The first time I read it when I was a teenager. I was so charmed. I found it very... entertaining. Yes, entertaining. Being a 14 yo boy I couldn't see all its hidden sense, depth and enormous beauty. Then I grew up and read it again, opening its new sides. In a few months I read it again...
Now I even cannot count how many times I've read it. Countlessly.
And every time I read it I find something new, something that was hidden from my eyes before.
The text above is my fav part of the book.

October 28, 2012

Ant #129. Gender play.

Today I received an email from my friend.
Before you read it, I wanna say that this my friend is straight.

So... Here is what he wrote.

Dude I think I'm going to go for male to female surgery hahaha. I want a big pair of tits and female hormones; but I want to keep my penis; I like my penis lol, and I'm also gonna be a lesbian pretty much since I'm usually attracted to girls in the first place. I really think I was born the wrong gender. Haven't told anyone yet lol.... Just feel fucking insecure and so ugly and worthless as a man and when I put on makeup and look feminine it feels so right.... I feel so good!

Cool, right? )))
I came back home (I spent last night not at home ^_^ ) and took a book that I've bought in a sex-shop in Amsterdam. It calls FETISH and it tells about some crazy stuff. )))

Page 36-37. GENDER PLAY.

A cross-dresser is someone who, while enjoying dressing as a member of the opposite sex, doesn't  necessarily mix it with any form of erotic association. Cross-dressing  has a long colorful history, from the gender confusion in Shakespearean comedies such as Twelfth Night and Comedy of Errors, to the true historical accounts of women who disguised their gender to take on masculine roles in the military. The berdache men in Native American culture dressed and played the role of females in society, even to the point of taking a husband. To associate cross-dressing exclusively with homosexuality is, however, an all too common mistake. Most male cross-dressers prefer to have female partners, but because of social constraints and taboos around men donning feminine attire, it remains relatively secretive.

Crazy, isn't it?
I never tried something like this, even if I'm not very straight. )))
Not because I'm against it, but because I never felt need to try it. I don't didn't even have a friend that practiced a cross-dressing. 
But now I think I'm gonna take a look on it. Maybe it feels good to open another side of your personality. Maybe it's a guilty pleasure. Or maybe it's just funny!

Anyway, I never wore high-hills )))

Ok, now seriously!
Anybody ever practiced a cross-dressing? Or knows people who practiced? 
I'm just interested in how they do that?!

Sh*t, I have a book full of perversions and I never tried even one. So this is another one reason to go to New York f*cking city. I need someone to share this experience, I cannot do it alone. )

Ooooph, I feel the heat )))

October 26, 2012

Ant #128. T.G.I.F.

Ok, guys!
I wanna talk about fridays.
I never understood all the excitement about this day.
No, seriously. Why friday? Why not saturday?

Listen... Friday is the last work day and people sometimes go to bars to drink something with friends and blah blah blah. So do I. But usually this day I'm very exhausted and 1 pinta of beer is more than enough to switch me off.
Well, ok, I'm joking, 2 pintas)))
Doesn't matter! )))

I wanna say that saturdays are much better for me!
I can sleep till 2 pm, do nothing the whole day, then go to the club and drink and dance and have fun not feeling tired or sleepy.


But for those who still love fridays, 

★ ★ ★ THANX GOD, IT'S FRIDAY! ★ ★ ★

October 24, 2012

Ant #127. Evil Dead (2013)

One of my favorite horrors ever will get a second life! Next year!

Evil Dead (2013), remake

If you're my friend, you probably heard these stories from me how I was deathly scared watching all 3 films of "Evil Dead" on VHS.
Yeah, in the beginning of 90s we didn't have DVDs. )))
I was 5 years old, when my girl next door gave me a cassete.
I asked my sister (6 yo) to watch it with me. Ooooh, it was a long night))))
Then I was watching it again and again, I couldn't stop, I loved it!

And yes, my parents had no idea about what was I watching )))

So...  This is a trailer! Enjoy!

October 23, 2012

Ant #126. Private life.

Every day somebody asks me about my relationship status.
This question always makes me furious!

It's not your f*cking business!

I'm not ashamed of my partner if I have one. I just don't understand why do I have to tell everyone if I'm taken?!
Some say: "I'd like to try to tempt you if you were single."
Kids, if you're interested in me only if I'm single, I'm not interested in you! I don't like cowards!
Others say: "I'm gonna fight for you, if you're taken."
So f*cking do that! Stop asking me your stupid questions!

I really don't like to discuss my private life with anybody, except of my partner of course.
If people know any couples, they like to give them advices. I don't need this sh*t.
They also like to "worry" about others, if they break up. Doh, you better worry about your stupid thoughts.
Or sometimes they hear rumours and immediately call other's partner to tell them their "truth". Pfffff.... Get a life!

Everytime you let people come into your private life, they destroy it!
This is the only truth!

Watch out!


October 22, 2012

Ant #125. Madonna MDNA Tour (full show)

I'm still very excited about Madonna's current tour.

Remember about my "depression"? It's gone!
My summer trip to be continued in december, as I said here with 4 more shows! )))

★ December 13, Buenos Aires ★
★ December 15, Buenos Aires ★ 
★ December 19, Santiago★ 
★ FINAL SHOW OF MDNA TOUR! December 22, Cordoba ★

This is just unbelievable!
But unfortunately there are almost 2 moths to wait!
That's why I wanna share this amazing spectacular show with you!

Pictures are made by "Moment Factory", a great team of genius people who created this wonderful stage.

Madonna - Girl Gone Wild (MDNA Tour)
Madonna - Revolver (MDNA Tour)
Madonna - Express Yourself (MDNA Tour)
Madonna - Vogue (MDNA Tour)
Madonna - Celebration (MDNA Tour)
★  ★  ★

★  ★  ★

October 16, 2012

Ant #124. Haters gonna hate.

Some say that I'm bad, that my misbehaviors are awful, that I talk to people in a rude manner, that I'm too selfish and snooty.

Well, if you think so, let it be the truth. I don't give a sh*t.

What I think of it is just I really don't care how many people love me. No, seriously. Do I need to be loved by everyone? I don't think so. All I wanna know is there is at least 1 person in the world who likes me for who I am. That's it.

I'm afraid of those who are ready for everything to make a good impression. They lie. They pretend to be what they're not. I don't trust people who cannot tell me "F*ck off, dude, I'm in a bad mood to talk!"

But most of all I hate people who always try to teach me, because they think they're better than me.
Doh! Are you f*cking serious? If I don't lick your ass, it doesn't mean I'm worse than you.

Maybe, sometimes I'm rude, but at least I'm honest. And I want people to be honest with me. If I have something to tell you, I say it. If I don't like what you do, I'm not gonna be tolerant, I'll tell you my opinion. You think I bully you? Honey, I just have balls to tell you that I don't take your sh*t anymore. If you don't wanna hear my words, I'll show you where is an exit.

And you know what? I'm good! ;-)

Haters gonna hate

October 12, 2012

Ant #123. When dreams come true...

The best way to live is to dream!
The best way to live brightly is to make dreams come true!

After 3 years I'm going to South America once again!

50 hours in the sky.
10's of friends.
5 cities.
4 MDNA shows.
2 new counties.

Ah, Buenos Aires! The city that I love the most!
It's so good to come back!
You make me feel so happy and free.
What will you bring me for this time? More parties? More fun? More "last-night troubles"? )))
Or maybe more love and feeling "special"?

Just "give me all your luvin'", Buenos Aires!
I wanna live dangerously! ;-)

Buenos Aires

October 10, 2012

Ant #122. Are you religious?

Seriously, how many of my friends are religious?
I'm not asking, do you believe in God/Allah/Buddha/anybody or anything else?
I'm asking, do you follow all the rules according to your religion? Do you go to churches/mosque? And what does it mean for you?

Today I've been told:
"When you tell atheist that God exists, he smiles. When you tell a religious man that God doesn't exist, he kills you."

I've been growing up with a sureness that religious people are the most pieceful in the world, because their religions teach them to love each other, not to kill, not to hate. And what can I see now? They can cut each other's necks. They judge on behalf of God.
But what is really pissing me off is that they complain about atheistic culture, because it insults their feelings.
But what if I say that YOUR religious stuff insults MY feelings? Maybe I don't like churches in a downtown? Maybe I hate watching you cross yourself on public?
But I would never tell you! I respect everyone's choice!

I really think that atheists follow the 10 commandments better and sincerer than religious people do.

This is my opinion.

P.S. Hey religious! Pray better! You have much more chances to go to the hell than me. XoXo

October 9, 2012

Ant #121. About nothing.

So long time with no post.
But I don't even know what to say.
No seriously, nothing happened.

I usually say that if I don't write anything, it means I'm doing fine. )))))

* * *
A couple of weeks ago I went to my home town. I always go there in the end of september, coz Oct 1st is mym mom birthday. I'm trying to be with her this day.
I gotta admit that this time my trip was kinda good, especially comparing to my previous visit of them. Noone f*cked with me, noone was teaching me, noone was trying to "help" me.
I spent an amazing weekend on a beach with my friends.

Black Sea

* * *
I've finally started the new trimestre in my institute of spanish. My professor (a girl from the south of Spain) is fine, but I expected more. My previous one was a "star", a cool guy from Valencia. Let's wait, maybe she gets better soon.

* * *
Last weekend my friend from Ukraine visited me. It was one of the coolest weekends in this year. Yeah, it's true. She's very kind, we spend a great time together. 2 nights in a row in the clubs, sightseeing, meeting our mutual friends. Everything was perfect. Even the bad weather couldn't ruine our mood.
I'm already missing her. Maybe I should go to Kiev...
We'll see...

* * *
And the most important!
I've managed my trip to Argentina on december.
It means that my MDNA tour didn't end like I thought 2 months ago. )))
I'll share all the details later!

Sincerelly yours, Just Me.

P.S. I have to see that amazing performance! This songs wasn't included into the tour before.

September 24, 2012

Ant #120. Mom's b-day.

This is always a headache to me.

First of all, because I have to go to my home town. It's a kind of tradition. I live by my own in another city more than 6 years, but I never skip my mom's birthday. So she knows I'll come anyway.

Then, because I don't know what she wants. I mean a gift. She says she doesn't need anything. But it's a birthday, I have to buy something. When I was abroad for the last time (in Norway), I've bought Madonna's perfume for her ("Truth or Dare"), but it's too cheap for being a b-day gift. It's just a souvenir from my trip.

Truth or Dare by Madonna

DOH! 4 days till the flight, but I have no f*cking idea what to buy!


September 22, 2012

Ant #119. Learning the world!

Do you know that I'm addicted to discovering the world?!
This how I do it! ;-)

September 13, 2012

Ant #118. Hunger.

That's what I feel now. An emotional hunger.

Inside of me there is an ocean of unspent tenderness, passion and love. And I want somebody to drown in it. I wanna feel like I'm the one and the only. I need a beautiful killer that will shoot me straight in my heart.

I've been alone for too long and I'm afraid to forget how it feels to be loved. I hate myself for what I'll say now, but I'm tired of being lonely.
Yeah, it sounds pathetic, I know... But what can I do?!

September 8, 2012

Ant #117. Money.

Money... Money, money, money...
That's what I need right now!

After ending my summer trip, I feel so broken. Not because I'm tired or exhausted, but because I want more. I'm dying to go to South America on december, but now it seems absolutely impossible.

Here is my "To Do / Pay For" list:

1) Flight to my hometown, on sept/oct.
2) Birthday gift for my mom.
3) New shoes, jeans, a few other clothes.
4) Birthday gift for my bff.
5) Flight to South America and back on december.
6) A few local flights.
7) Hotels.
8) 4 tickets for Madonna's shows (it's a huuuge money).

And I'm not talking about food and my apartment rent.
Doh! Why is the world so unfair? WHYYYYYYY?


September 5, 2012

Ant #116. I'm afraid of people. VOL.2

In my previous post I told you about crazy guy annoying me and my friend.

Last night and this morning he surpassed himself.
He hacked my friend's account on facebook and stole some of her pictures from private albums. Then he sent me them with awful comments like "Look at this wh*re! How can you talk to her? She's disgusting!"
I said he's sick and did nothing.
Then he anonymously messaged her: "I talked to him and he told me he will never touch you again", what is completely a lie, coz we didn't even talk (I just don't wanna answer to him).
Then he sent me a message with cheap porn-movies words: "I'd like to see how you cum on her boobs and then I'll f*ck you!"
I ignored all this crap, but at the morning my email was full of his letters with many photos of him. Can you imagine what were these photos? On some of them he was horny (you know what I mean), on others he was dressed up in female stockings.


I'm so tired of him. Please, whoever you are, F*CK OFF!


September 3, 2012

Ant #115. I'm afraid of people.

Next to my stalker, I got another crazy man.

I met a girl. We're just friends now, but there is a sympathy between us. So who knows...
We don't talk to anybody about our relationship, but thanks to social networks it's obvious for other people.
Someone (not my stalker, I'm pretty sure) messaged her that he and I are a couple for a while, have sex and everything is serious and she must to f*ck off. He told her awful rude things, called her a wh*re.
She knows I'm bisexual and she got a good laugh at this anonym, but anyway it scares me. And I really have no idea who is he. The world is full of crazy people that don't have their own lives.

I don't know what to do. From one side I don't give a shit, but from other side who knows what these people are thinking about.

August 27, 2012

Ant #114. Stalker.

I got one! The real stalker!!!
Haters are so irrelevant! I'm tired of them. But the stalker made my week! )))))))
This is what I call SUCCESS! )))

The 19 years old boy messages me every day. Anonymously! He describes how he would like to lick my body, tells me how sexy I am, asks me about sex in a bathroom/car, with a condom or raw.
But the most funny is he's not sure I'm straight/bi/gay, and I don't tell him )))

I make laugh))))
For example!

Q: I'd like to lick your body.
A: Eeeewww.

This is sooooo funny ))))

August 22, 2012


I wanna make a new short haircut, but I cannot decide which one.
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