December 30, 2014

Ant #298. Good-bye 2014.

What can I say?
This year has been horrible as hell. Not the worst in my life, but still...

Ok ok, step by step... )))

It's been full of events, ups and downs, stories, bad and good things in almost all the possible sides of a human being's life.

And the most disgusting one is that my country (where I was born) attacked another one, occupied a part of its territory and started a real war with thousands of killed people now on both sides. This situation nearly ruined my relationship with family, especially with my dad who has been a military all his life and sees a greatness of our country in being assholes. It also affected all our incomings, but I would give all my money just to stop this fucking war. Probably it's the very first time in my life when I feel ashamed for being russian. I know I'm not responsible for this crap, I was always against Putin and his corrupted government, I went to all the demonstrations, I never voted for him or his party, but I allowed him to become a president, I didn't try well to convince people and show them who he really is. So I guess I AM responsible too and this feeling is killing me from the inside.

Well, but in this year there also were some positive moments. If 2013 was heartbreaking, than 2014 has been heartrecovering! ))) No details this time, just wanna say that I learnt once again how to love and I think this is the best thing that happened to me in years. I found out that I'm so full of love, passion, warmness, caring, more than ever! I'm not afraid of my feelings any longer and I'm totally happy!

Like in the song... "Through the darkness somehow I survived. Tough love... I knew it from the start, deep down in the depth of my rebel heart!"



So for those who has been devastated like me in this yeah, I wish the next one to be better, actually it barely can be worse! )))
For those who have been fine (I know some, LOL), I wish you all, lucky bastards, the next one to be even brighter!

Spread the love! <3


December 21, 2014

Ant #297. Madonna - Rebel Heart is out!



OH. MY. GOSH!
LOOK AT. HER. BUTT SALES!

She's currently on #1 all over the world!
So amazing! After 32 years in business and still slaying! YAASSSSSSS!

Like here in Argentina she got ##1-6 in songs charts and #1 in albums chart! WOW!

 


Pre-order the new album here and get first 6 songs!
http://smarturl.it/RebelHeart

<3

So as usually I post lyrics!


LIVING FOR LOVE

First you love me and I let you in
Made me feel like I was born again
You empowered me, you made me strong
Built me up and I can do no wrong
I let down my guard, I fell into your arms
Forgot who I was, I didn't hear the alarms
Now I'm down on my knees, alone in the dark
I was blind to your game
You fired a shot in my heart

Took me to heaven, let me fall down
Now that it's over
I'm gonna carry on
Lifted me up and watched me stumble
After the heartache
I'm gonna carry on

Living for love
I'm living for love
I'm not giving up
I'm gonna carry on
Living for love
I'm living for love
Not gonna stop
Love's gonna lift me up
Love's gonna lift me up

I could get caught up in bitterness
But I'm not dwelling on this crazy mess
I found freedom in the ugly truth
I deserve the best and it's not you
You've broken my heart, but you can't break me down
That have fallen apart, that was lost, now I'm found
I picked up my crown, put it back in my head
I can forgive, but I will never forget

Took me to heaven and let me fall down
Now that it's over
I'm gonna carry on
Lifted me up, and watched me stumble
After the heartache
I'm gonna carry on

Living for love
I'm living for love
I'm not giving up
I'm gonna carry on
Living for love
I'm living for love
Not gonna stop
Love's gonna lift me up
Love's gonna lift me up
Love's gonna lift me up
Cause love's gonna lift me up

Up, up, up, up
Love lift me up, up, up, up
Cause love's gonna lift me up

Up, up, up, up
Love lift me up, up, up, up
Love's gonna lift me up

Love lift me up, up, up, up

Living for love
Living for love
I'm not giving up
I'm gonna carry on
Living for love
I'm Living for love
Not gonna stop
Love's gonna lift me up


DEVIL PRAY

Take my sins and wash them away
Teach me how to pray
I've been stranded here in the dark
Take these walls away

I've been swimming in the ocean
Till I almost drowned
Give me something I can believe in
Teach me how to pray

And we can do drugs
And we can smoke weed
And we can drink whiskey
Yeah, we can get high and we can get stoned
And we can sniff glue
And we can do E
And we can drop acid
Forever we're lost with no way home

Yeah, we can run and we can hide
But we will find the answers
If you got down then you'll get help along the way
But if you want to save your soul
Then we could travel off together
And make the Devil pray

Mother Mary can't you help me?
Cause I've gone astray
All the angels that were around me
Have flown away

The ground beneath my feet's getting warmer
Lucifer is near
Holding on but I'm getting weaker
Watch me disappear

And we can do drugs
And we can smoke weed
And we can drink whiskey
Yeah, we can get high and we can get stoned
And we can sniff glue
And we can do E
And we can drop acid
Forever we're lost with no way home

Yeah, we can run and we can hide
But we will find the answers
If you got down then you'll get help along the way
But if you want to save your soul
Then we could travel off together
And make the Devil pray

O-o-ooh sing Hallelujah
Save my soul
O-o-ooh the Devil's here to fool ya
Until my story's told

I said o-o-ooh sing Hallelujah
Save my soul
O-o-ooh The Devil's here to fool ya
Until my story's told


GHOSTTOWN

Maybe it was all too much
Too much for a man to take
Everything's bound to break
Sooner or later, sooner or later

You're all that I can trust
Facing the darkest days
Everyone ran away
But we're gonna stay here, we're gonna stay here

Ahhhhhh, Ahhhhh
I know you're scared tonight
Ahhhhhh, Ahhhhh
I'll never leave your side

When it all falls, when it all falls down
I'll be your fire when the lights go out
When there's no one, no one else around
We'll be two souls in a ghost town

When the world gets cold
I'll be your cover
Let's just hold
Onto each other
When it all falls, when it all falls down
We'll be two souls in a ghost town

Tell me how we got this far
Every man for himself
Everything's gone to hell
We gotta stay strong, we're gonna hold on

This world has turned to dust
All we've got left is love
Might as well start with us
Singing a new song, something to build on

Ahhhhhh, Ahhhhh
I know you're scared tonight
Ahhhhhh, Ahhhhh
I'll never leave your side

When it all falls, when it all falls down
I'll be your fire when the lights go out
When there's no one, no one else around
We'll be two souls in a ghost town

When the world gets cold
I'll be your cover
Let's just hold
Onto each other
When it all falls, when it all falls down
We'll be two souls in a ghost town

I know we're alright
Cause we'll never be alone
In this mad mad, in this mad mad world
Even with no light
We're gonna shine like gold
In this mad mad, in this mad mad world

When it all falls, when it all falls down
I'll be your fire when the lights go out
When there's no one, no one else around
We'll be two souls in a ghost town

When it all falls, when it all falls down
I'll be your fire when the lights go out
When there's no one, no one else around
We'll be two souls in a ghost town

When the world gets cold
I'll be your cover
Let's just hold
Onto each other
When it all falls, when it all falls down
We'll be two souls in a ghost town
When it all falls, when it all falls down
We'll be two souls in a ghost town


UNAPOLOGETIC BITCH

Woke up this morning
Feeling good that you were gone
Hurt for a while,
But I'm finally moving on
Said it, Did it, Hit it, Quit it
Then you let it go
See you tried to call me,
But I blocked you on the phone

It took a minute,
But now I'm feeling strong
It almost killed me,
But I'm better off alone
Now you say it that you're sorry,
I don't wanna know
Better face the fact
You had to go

It might sound like I'm an
Unapologetic bitch
But sometimes you know I gotta
Call it like it is
It might sound like I'm an
Unapologetic bitch
But sometimes you know I gotta
Call it like it is

You know you never really knew
How much you loved me 'til you lost me
Did you?
You know you never really knew
How much your selfish bullshit cost me
Oh, fuck you

It might sound like I'm an
It might sound like I'm an

I know you'd like it
If I stayed home and cried
But that ain't gonna happen,
Here's the reason why
When we did it, I'll admit it,
Wasn't satisfied
When the gun was loaded
You were never on the side

I'm popping bottles
That you can't even afford
I'm throwing parties
And you won't get in the door
Said it, Did it, Loved it, Hated it
I don't care no more
Tell me how it feels
To be ignored?

It might sound like I'm an
Unapologetic bitch
But sometimes you know I gotta
Call it like it is
It might sound like I'm an
Unapologetic bitch
But sometimes you know I gotta
Call it like it is

You know you never really knew
How much you loved me 'til you lost me
Did you?
You know you never really knew
How much your selfish bullshit cost me
Oh, fuck you

It might sound like I'm an
It might sound like I'm an

It might sound like I'm an
It might sound like I'm an

It might sound like I'm an
Unapologetic bitch
But sometimes you know I gotta
Call it like it is
It might sound like I'm an
Unapologetic bitch
But sometimes you know I gotta
Call it like it is

You know you never really knew
How much you loved me 'til you lost me
Did you?
You know you never really knew
How much your selfish bullshit cost me
Oh, fuck you

It might sound like I'm an
Unapologetic bitch
But sometimes you know I gotta
Call it like it is
It might sound like I'm an
Unapologetic bitch
But sometimes you know I gotta
Call it like it is

It might sound like I'm an
It might sound like I'm an


ILLUMINATI

It's not Jay Z and Beyonce
It's not Nicki or Lil Wayne
It's not Oprah and Obama
The Pope or Rihanna 
Queen Elizabeth or Kanye

It's not pentagrams or witchcraft
It's not triangles or stacks of cash
Black magic or Gaga
Gucci or Prada
Riding on a golden cat

The all-seeing eye is watching tonight
That's what it is
Truth and light

The all-seeing eye is watching tonight
Nothing to hide
Secrets inside

It's like everybody in this party, shining like Illuminati
It's like everybody in this party, shining like Illuminati

It's the enlightenment that started it all
The founding fathers wrote it down on the wall
And now the media's misleading us all
To right and to wrong

It's time to dance and turn this dark into something
So let the fire burn, this music is bumping
We're gonna live forever, love never dies
It starts tonight

Behind the curtain of the new world order
It's not platinum encrypted corners
It's not Isis or the phoenix,
pyramids of Egypt
Don't make it into something sordid

It's not Steve Jobs or Bill Gates
It's not the Google or United States
It's not Bieber or the LeBron
Clinton or Obama
Or anyone you love to hate

The all-seeing eye is watching tonight
That's what it is
Truth and light

The all-seeing eye is watching tonight
Nothing to hide
Secrets inside

It's like everybody in this party, shining like Illuminati
It's like everybody in this party, shining like Illuminati

You know that everything that glitters isn't gold
So let the music take you out of control
It's time to feel it in your body and soul
C'mon, let's go

We're gonna dance and turn this dark into something
So let the fire burn, this music is bumping
We're gonna live forever, love never dies
It starts tonight

It's like everybody in this party, shining like Illuminati
It's like everybody in this party, shining like Illuminati
It's like everybody in this party, shining like Illuminati
It's like everybody in this party, shining like Illuminati
It's like everybody in this party, shining like Illuminati
It's like everybody in this party, shining like Illuminati


BITCH I'M MADONNA

You're gonna love this
You can't touch this
Cause I'm a bad bitch

We hit the elevator right up to the rooftop
The bass is pumpin', make me wanna screw the top off
Yeah we'll be drinking and nobody's gonna stop us
And we'll be kissing anybody that's around us
I just wanna have fun tonight
Love me under the flashing light
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Let me blow up this house tonight

We go hard or we go home
We gon' do this all night long
We get freaky if you want
Na na na na na
We go hard or we go home
We gon' do this all night long
We get freaky if you want
Bitch I'm Madonna

We're jumping in the pool
And swimming with our clothes on
I brought a pee-wee to my show and got my freak on
The neighbor's pissed and says he's gonna call the Five-O
If they show up then we are gonna give a good show

I just wanna go out tonight
Pull me under the flashing light
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Let me blow up this house tonight

We go hard or we go home
We gon' do this all night long
We get freaky if you want
Na na na na na
We go hard or we go home
We gon' do this all night long
We get freaky if you want
Bitch I'm Madonna

Who do you think you are?
You can't miss this, this lucky star
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Who do you think you are?

[Nicki Minaj]
Hold up with my nose up
And that rose up in that thanga
I'm froze up, but my stove up
Cause he eatin' like this his dinner
I run shit, I don't fall back
Cause I'm on track, I'm a sprinter
I'm bossed up, I got em all struck
It's not a toss up, I'm the winner
Beep beep, bitch move
'Fore I bang bang with that Uz
That's Miu Miu on my shoes
Ain't got a thing left for me to prove
It's that bottle service all night
It's that poppin' urban just right
It's that go hard or go home zone
Bitch, I'm Madonna, these hoes know

We go hard or we go home
We gon' do this all night long
We get freaky if you want
Na na na na
We go hard or we go home
We gon' do this all night long
We get freaky if you want
Bitch I'm Madonna

We do it like this
You're gonna love this
You can't touch this
Cause I'm a bad bitch

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

December 13, 2014

Ant #296. BEST and WORST of 2014.

1) Best pop song.

So many great songs were released in this year.

Kylie Minogue - Sexercize
Kiesza - Hideaway
Sia - Chandelier
Lily Allen - Hard Out Here

but there's only one winner and it's...

Chlöe Howl - Rumour 



2) Best pop album.

There was a really great competition and the winner is...

Sia - 1000 Forms of Fear




3) Best dance song.

I danced my ass away with Robyn, Röyksopp, Martin Solveig,
but dancing shoes are in love with...

Sander Kleinenberg - We-R-Superstars



4) Best dance album.

but my appreciation for the album goes to...

Röyksopp & Robyn - Do It Again EP



5) Best r'n'b/rap song.


OH. MY. GOSH.
LOOK AT. HER. BUTT.
OH. MY. GOSH.
LOOK AT. HER. BUTT.

Congrats to Nicki Minaj - Anaconda



6) Best r'n'b/rap album.

Nothing really impressed me this year )))

7) Best live performance.

Probably one of the greatest thing that happened to pop music!
I literally burst in tears when I saw all these happy couples getting married in front of million eyes!

Macklemore & Ryan Lewis, Mary Lambert and Madonna - Same Love / Open Your Heart




8) Tour of the year. 

With no doubts... Katy Perry - Prismatic World Tour




9) Best new artist.

This year my choice is...

Zella Day

I'm so amazed with her EP and I'm looking forward to get an album! <3




10) Video of the year.

That was difficult to choose one... I really loved many:

Tove Lo - Habits (Stay High)
Little Boots - Taste It
Wrabel - Ten Feet Tall
Clean Bandit - Rather Be (feat. Jess Glynne)

but the best one is...

Chromeo - Old 45's




11) Artist of the year.

The sweetest and loveliest... Kylie Minogue! <3

Good album, sexy videos, great tour and the best personality!





And some anti-awards! ^_^

1) Worst album.

And the winner is... Beyonce with self-titled album!

Just to make things clear, I'm not hater, I loved her previous stuff, I even attended her shows twice, but her last two albums disappointed me, especially the last one. Sorry.



2) Worst video.

There was no competition. The winner is pretty obvious...

Gwen Stefani - Babidon Babidon Babidonlay



3) Worst tour.

And the "Golden Shit" for the best worst tour of 2014 goes to...

Lady Gaga - fArtRave: ArtFlop Tour



4) Flop of the year.

The one and the only... Mariah Carey!

She fucked up everything! Her album flopped, her tour has been a disaster, her voice has disappeared.



5) Worst artist.

And here was a really great competition! I thought these contestants were about to kill each other. Jay-Z tried to buy my voice, but it's not that cheap)))
The point in this nomination is in its name... ARTist... It was a hard decision but I made it...
Ladies and gentlemen... The worst ARTist of the year...

Lady Who Gaga!!!



Thank you! Good night!
See you next year!

December 12, 2014

Ant #295. Warning.

If we just met and you ask me any of the following questions: 

- Wanna come to my home for a coffee?
- How big is it?
- Top or bottom?
- etc etc,

you can be sure it's our last conversation. Who the hell you think you are? And what the fuck do you think of me? 
You have no respect. Go fuck yourself. 


Ant #294. My name.


It seems like it's pretty confusing...
Let's make it clear:

Gennady - with double N.
Gena - with one N.


Hahahaaa) It's not pissing me off, I know my name is too difficult to spell or to pronounce it. That's why I use a nickname in Starbucks for example, I don't wanna crash their brains )))

I've seen and heard lots of variations. I'm gonna collect them, I guess.

So let's start from the beginning. I'm Gennady/Gena/Gene.

In russian my name sounds like:

Gennady - [gɛ'nɑdi] with an accent on "-na-"

and the short form like:

Gena - ['gɛnɑ] with an accent on "Ge-".

LOL))) It's not the end)))

My international friends usually pronounce my name like if it was an english one. It's more preferable for me coz I got used to it. So make sure you remember it )))))

Gena - ['ʤɛnɑ]

or simply

Gene - [ʤin] 

which is also fine!

Thanx for attention! You've been a good student! ;-)



December 10, 2014

Ant #293. Advise.

If you're sharing a bed with someone and being asked if you're sleeping or not, DON'T REPLY!
Trust me, just shut the f*ck up and pretend you're sleeping. You won't regret!


December 4, 2014

Ant #292. Friendzone.

I never talked about "friendzone" coz I never was in this situation, I mean I never was friendzoned.
And this theme is kinda new to me.

We all have been rejected, but it's always pretty clear. You can just go f*ck yourself. But how to react on this 21 century invent, on being "friendzoned"?

Weird, isn't it?

One thing is when one tells another one that they can be great friends.
Another thing is when one keeps pulling and pushing another one, playing with another one's feelings, giving hopes and then destroying them. It's just cruel.

I respect honesty!
Make things clear. Immediately. The more you play, the worse will be the pain.

It hurts just a little when you're being told you're not loved, and it hurts way more when you see the signs that something is possible and then you got your heart broken.

The thing that I don't understand is how those who are being friendzoned can stay in touch with their "lovers", having him so close and so far away at the same time. Face the truth, nothing's gonna happen. Sorry.


November 29, 2014

Ant #291. Brazil vs. Argentina.

No, no, I'm not gonna compare these countries.
Both are great!

I wanna talk about one thing that I noticed when I was in Brazil. I didn't talk about it coz it was a feeling and I couldn't express it in words. Now, after one interesting conversation I know how to do this.

When I was in Rio, Brasilia and San Paulo wherever I met people (in hotels, cafe, public transport or on the streets) they first started talking to me in portuguese. Then I replied in english and they asked me where am I from... In Brazil anybody can "be" brazilian. There are people with every skin/eyes/hair colors, in all combinations. And you never look like a foreigner.

Here in Argentina I know that it doesn't matter how long I'm about to live here, I'll always be a foreigner, a gringo or a yankee. I look too different.

It's not good or bad. It's just a fact.

Ant #290. "Rebel Heart" and "Wash All Over Me".

First, I'd like to say some words.

I'm not happy that both songs are leaked. Madonna spent months in studio and definitely wanted them to appear in another way.
But anyway I love them and I got super-excited! Can't wait for the whole album (to be released, not leaked, of course).

Second.
I don't get those who say them sound like Avicii. Hello, any song of any artist sounds typically for a producer who made it. So calm the fuck down and enjoy the music!


Madonna – Rebel Heart

I lived my life like a masochist
Hearing my father say: “Told you so, told you so”
“Why can´t you be like the other girls?”
I said: “Oh no, that’s not me and I don’t think that it’ll ever be”
Thought I belong to a different tribe, walking alone,
Never satisfied, satisfied
Tried to fit in but it wasn´t me,
I said: “Oh no, I want more, that´s not what I´m looking for”

So I took the road less travelled by
And I barely made it out alive
Through the darkness somehow I survived
Tough love, I knew it from the start
Deep down in the depth of my rebel heart, of my rebel heart

I spent some time as a narcissist
Hearing the other say: “Look at you, look at you”,
Trying to be so provocative
I said: “Oh yeah, that was me”
All the things I did just to be seen
Outgrown my past and
I´ve shed my skin
Letting it go and I´ll start again, start again
Never look back
It´s a waste of time, I said: “Oh yeah, this is me”
And I´m right here where I wanna be
I said: “Hell yeah! This is me”
Right where I´m supposed to be


So I took the road less travelled by
And I barely made it out alive
Through the darkness somehow I survived
Tough love, I knew it from the start
Deep down in my Rebel Heart

So I took the road less travelled by
And I barely made it out alive
Through the darkness somehow I survived
Tough love, I knew it from the start
Deep down in the depth

Of my Rebel heart
Of my Rebel heart
Of my Rebel Heart
Of my Rebel Heart…



Madonna – Wash All Over Me

In a world that’s changing
I’m a stranger in a strange land
There’s a contradiction
And I’m stuck here in between
Life is a like a desert,
An oasis… too confusing
So I walk this razors edge
Will I stand or will I fall
Turned a blind eye

Tried to pretend that nothing is what it seems
Torn between the impulse to stay or running away with from this madness

Who am I to decide what should be done?
If this is the end then let it come
Let it come, let it rain
Let it rain, rain all over me
Like the tide, let it go
Let it wash all over me
Over me, let it wash all over me
Over me, let it wash all over me

All of my illusions
Could be shattered in a second
You could thread a needle
With a tear drop from my eye
It’s a cruel injustice
To be witness to the things i see
Looking for the answer
When it’s right in front of me

From the tower of Babylon
Where nothing is what it seems
Gonna watch the sun going down
I’m not gonna run from all this sadness

Who am I to decide what should be done?
If this is the end then let it come
Let it come, let it rain
Let it rain, rain all over me
Like the tide, let it go
Let it wash all over me
Over me, let it wash all over me
Over me, let it wash all over me



November 25, 2014

Ant #288. 30 Things Every Gay Man Must Do Before Turning 30.

I've just seen an article called 30 Things Every Gay Man Must Do Before Turning 30, and I couldn't leave it without comments coz the majority of these 30 is just weird. I don't know who's responsible for this text but I guess he knows nothing about people, their tastes and preferences.

Here we go...

30. Make friends with someone you haven’t slept with
Ehh, I actually had just a very few partners in my life and I never slept with any of my friends or mates. So what can you recommend me? To finally sleep with one?

29. Get over the ex who hurt you
Ehh, are you talking to me? I have no problems with my exs.

28. Watch the movie Showgirls
I did. But you should better offer me something more intellectual.

27. Clear out your closet
I regularly do, don't you?

26. Evaluate your safe-sex practices
Oh, in my 30s, right? Are you f*cking kidding me? You MUST do that since your teenage.

25. Quit smoking, like, for real this time
So before 30s it's ok to smoke, right?

24. Learn how to hold your alcohol
I have learnt. Many many years ago.

23. Stop drunk texting your FBs
Never did.

22. See Cher in concert
What if I like hard rock or heavy metal? Or gospel? Or rap? Come on, Cher is nice, but she's not Messiah.

21. Cut the drama
Drama is definitely not about me. I like to watch and laugh, but not participate.

20. Date an older guy
Seriously? First of all, I'm not dating, I'm loving. Unconditionally. I'm not gonna push myself to date a granny just because you say it's worth it. If you say like this, you probably know nothing about real love. Second, what for? I don't need a dad, I need a lifetime partner.

19. Register to vote — and actually cast your ballot
I do vote.

18. Pay down your credit card debt
I have no debts.

17. Learn how to cook
I cook.

16. Stay at a clothing-optional resort
I'm not interested in this at all. My nudity is for a person that I love and that love me. Period.

15. Open a retirement account
The only good advice here.

14. Get rid of all your crap from IKEA
I have nothing from IKEA, but even if I had, what's the problem with it?

13. Date someone who’s not your type
See #20.

12. Read Gore Vidal’s The City and the Pillar
You say "It’s a must-read classic in gay literature." I'm not interested in GAY literature, I'm interested in GOOD literature. If this is the only book you tell me to read, I have some questions about you intelligence and education level.

11. Accept that some people are just assholes and nothing will ever change that
I have accepted already. I learnt this lesson like 10 years ago.

10. Explore a sexual fetish
As you wish.

9. Stop saying “I hate kids”
I don't hate them, I just don't wanna have them.

8. Gain some selfie-control
I think I'm good.

7. Indulge in luxurious bedding
I prefer to spend my money on something more interesting and thrilling like traveling.

6. Have coffee with an ex-boyfriend
I did many times. I'm friends with almost all of them.

5. Quit comparing yourself to others
Never did.

4. Wear sunscreen, even on your butt
I never leave my home with no sunscreen on me, but thanx for caring.

3. Stop complaining about the things everyone else deals with, too
This is definitely not about me.

2. Bottom… At least once
Anything else? S&M? Zoo? Golden shower?
It's good you try to show us different sides of pleasure, but don't forget that everyone has his own preferences.

1. Stop freaking out about being 30
I'm almost 29, and I'm in my best age. I'm good looking, young and fresh, I'm healthy and full of energy. I'm smart and educated. I'm independent. Why should I be freaked out?



November 17, 2014

Ant #287. Brüderschaft.

To drink "na broodershaft" with someone is to consolidate friendship with a special ceremony when two of participants at the same time drink their glasses, for example with wine, with the hands bound in elbows. Then, most often, kiss. During the process it is necessary to look each other in eyes. From this moment participants are considered as good friends and have to address to each other on "you". Ritual comes from medieval Europe when the similar ceremony served as the proof of good intentions of the audience at a table.

According to another version the tradition to drink "na broodershaft" practiced between lovers. If a  drink of one of lovers was poisoned by another, with a kiss the poison was transferred back to the poisoner. Thus, the kiss served as the proof that drink of any of lovers wasn't poisoned.

On Wikipedia in russian: https://ru.wikipedia.org/wiki/%C1%F0%F3%E4%E5%F0%F8%E0%F4%F2

It doesn't matter if you're a man or a woman, straight or gay, married or single, this russian tradition is for everyone in any combination!
So if you drink "na broodershaft" with someone I strongly recommend you to buy a russian vodka at first!
Have a nice drink!
^_^


October 26, 2014

Ant #286. Random thoughts.

You: - Love is not enough for a good relationship.
Me: - If you say this, I guess that love is not necessary for you at all.

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The only sad thing in living alone is that one day you die and rot before someone finds you.

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What the point of celebrating anniversaries of your relationships? Just be together. That's it. Very simple.

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First they tell you you're so beautiful and they don't wanna be friendzoned, then they totally forget about your existence. Wtf?

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After all these leaks of celebrities photos I wonder... How many of us have "nudes" in our phones?

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I'd like to have some magical power.

October 24, 2014

Ant #285. Black.

Any psychologists here?

I noticed that black/grey clothes started dominating in my wardrobe, which is kinda weird to me coz I never like monochrome clothes and only bought colorful one.

Personally I thing that black basic clothes (if it's not Chanel little black dress) can be comfortable only for those people who are absolutely free on the inside and aren't interested in getting attention with bright clothes.

Am I right or I need a therapy now? ))))))


I was imprisoned by dark...

Ant #284. BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING YOU.

I've just finished reading George Orwell's novel Nineteen Eighty-Four (or 1984) and I must say that this is the best book I've read in this year.

I heard about it before, but always found something else to read. I wasn't expecting anything good from it. Luckily I forced myself to start reading it... and I drowned it it!

It's a type of literature that doesn't bore you even for a moment. It's catchy from the very first till the very last page.

I'm not gonna describe the story, I just STRONGLY recommend you to read it!


October 13, 2014

Ant #282. Addicted to Internet.


2 days.
2 days since my home internet collapsed. 

At first it felt unusual and uncomfortable. Then it felt really depressing coz I didn't only leave with no facebook chat and Skype, but also with no news, movies and possibility to work. But now it feels... challenging. Yeah, challenging! I met a friend, spent the whole day on a riverside talking to him, now I'm making a coffee and starting a new book that I wanted to start reading many weeks ago. 

P.S. I made this post on my phone, if u wanna know! But I don't really like surfing on it, so take it as an exception! ;-)

October 11, 2014

Ant #281. Weird charity.

Having some mixed feelings after watching the video below of a man walking across the streets and giving away money to random people. But before giving them a cash he asks them if they believe in god or not. They all said YES and got their money. The man also adds that he was sent to them by god.
So I got questions:
1) Why haven't we seen anybody who said NO? Or they all do believe?
2) And what would happen if someone said NO?
3) Is charity only for believers?
4) He got some cash and started to give it away. Why does he cover himself with "sent by god" if it was only up to him?
5) If he has this special connection to god, why isn't he Pope (or whatever)?

Even if I think that we must be very careful with charity (because it depraves people), I think it's a nice tool in a society. But in this case... Well, to me it's weird.

Probably the only think that I like in this video is that the man is giving away money to those people that work!

You can make your own opinion after watching this.



September 23, 2014

Ant #280. Citizens of the world.


I'm pretty sure about what I'm gonna say right now...

People who are passionate about traveling are different.

Don't even try to convince me in opposite.
And I'm not talking about rich people. I didn't say "who travel", I said "who are passionate". Mostly I mean people who are ready to travel with low-cost airlines or even to hitchhike, who save all their pennies just for not staying at home on their days-off.

These people are so different!
They discover many cultures, many traditions, many places. They absorb every little impression they get, but also they share their own uniqueness with others. You can also see them in a crowd, they look like extraterrestrials. So different! No matter where they are, they can always find friends because after being everywhere they knows that all human beings are made of the same flesh and the same blood. They can can talk to anyone about anything. They have a special light that is magnetizing good people. So different! They never judge. They accept and love all the people for who they are. They are tolerant, open-minded and ready to learn. They know how to enjoy the life. So different!

Once I've been told...
"It doesn't matter how old are your snickers if you're walking in them across Paris."
So damn true!


September 20, 2014

Ant #279. To talk or not to talk.

I'd like to ask you all...

We all definitely have that kind of people on our social networks newsfeed who always post horrible pictures of killed animals, of wars, of political issues etc.

I think it's totally ok that people speak their minds, but my question is: Does it really can change something? Let's just stop for a second and ask ourselves. If we flood all days about civil war in Syria, is it gonna stop? If we tweet about homofobia 24/7, is it gonna disappear? If we write about Putin's aggression on Ukraine, will he retire?

We all know that the answer is NO.

If you wanna change the world, stop talking and start doing something.

Find a Red Cross office and volunteer. Buy some food and toys and bring them to any orphanage. Organize a campaign of helping homeless animals.

Maybe it doesn't change the whole world, but it definitely changes the life around you.


September 11, 2014

Ant #278. Free.

Last night I got a really weird conversation with one dumb.

- Do u have someone?
- No, I'm single.
- Aw, u probably got used to be lonely.
- I'm not lonely.
- Yeah, yeah, u have friends, but not a partner.
- Well, I don't have a partner, but it doesn't mean I'm lonely, it means I'm free.

I was so pissed off.

Why do people in relationships treat single people as disabled, as 2nd class citizens, as unlucky ones deserving sympathy and compassion? What the hell?

Do they really think that a partner is all you need to be happy?
Well, I guess we imagine happiness in different ways.

I am single and I am happy!
I live a fulfilled life, I have lots of fun, I travel, I meet people, I have friends and family who love me and I love them as well, I'm healthy, I have a job, I'm a volunteer too coz I like to help other people. And you call me lonely just because I'm single?

Get a life. Seriously.


August 26, 2014

Ant #277. Homosexuality and religion.

I've been surfing through different pages and have seen a gay man with a poster "I'm gay, I'm christian and I love God."
And it's not the first time I see something like this. How many times I heard gay people saying "God said "Love your neighbor as yourself!"
Countless...

And I thought... What the actual f*ck?
Why do gay people defend themselves trying to show their connection with God pointing fingers at what he "said", even if they are atheists?

I'm sorry, is it the only possibility for me to excuse my existence? But what if I don't believe in God along with billions people? Am I supposed to just die?

The history shows us so many examples of existence of homosexuality through all the centuries.
Science has proved that there's no even one kind of animals on Earth with no homosexual ones.

But we still MUST take an existence of God by default and excuse our existence.
Why don't I see a single believer with a poster "I believe in God, I'm gay and I love scientists!"???
Because I cannot choose my own morality of life, I must live according to what I'm being told by people who follow try to follow the rules of a book written thousands years ago by someone with a huge imagination. (I fixed "follow" with "try to follow" because they actually don't, they failed a lot.)

I'm fed up with it.
I exist.
Deal with it or f*ck off!


August 17, 2014

Ant #276. 14 Habits Of Exceptionally Likable People.

Napoleon Hill, author of "Think and Grow Rich" — one of the top-selling books of all time — wrote about the habits of the most likable people in his essay "Develop A Pleasing Personality," published in the forthcoming collection "The Science of Success."

He introduced his steps to having a "million-dollar personality" by explaining it was steel magnate Charles M. Schwab's charming demeanor that in the late 19th century elevated him from day laborer to an executive with a $75,000 salary and a frequent million-dollar bonus (astronomical numbers for the time).

Schwab's boss, the legendary industrialist Andrew Carnegie said "the yearly salary was for the work Schwab performed, but the bonus was for what Schwab, with his pleasing personality, could get others to do," Hill writes.

Here are Hill's 14 habits of people who are so likable that others go out of their way to help them:

1. They develop a positive mental attitude and let it be seen and felt by others.
It's often easier to give into cynicism, but those who choose to be positive set themselves up for success and have better reputations.

2. They always speak in a carefully disciplined, friendly tone.
The best communicators speak deliberately and confidently, which gives their voice a pleasing sound.

3. They pay close attention to someone speaking to them.
Using a conversation as an opportunity to lecture someone "may feed the ego, but it never attracts people or makes friends," Hill says.

4. They are able to maintain their composure in all circumstances.
An overreaction to something either positive or negative can give people a poor impression. In the latter case, says Hill, "Remember that silence may be much more effective than your angry words."

5. They are patient.
"Remember that proper timing of your words and acts may give you a big advantage over impatient people," Hill writes.

6. They keep an open mind.
Those who close themselves off from certain ideas and associate only with like-minded people are missing out on not only personal growth but also opportunities for advancing their careers.

7. They smile when speaking with others.
Hill says that president Franklin D. Roosevelt's greatest asset was his "million-dollar smile," which allowed people to lower their guards during conversation.

8. They know that not all their thoughts need to be expressed.
The most likable people know that it's not worth offending people by expressing all their thoughts, even if they happen to be true.

9. They don't procrastinate.
Procrastination communicates to people that you're afraid of taking action, Hill says, and are therefore ineffective.

10. They engage in at least one good deed a day.
The best networkers help other people out without expecting anything in return.

11. They find a lesson in failure rather than brood over it.
People admire those who grow from failure rather than wallow in it. "Express your gratitude for having gained a measure of wisdom, which would not have come without defeat," Hill says.

12. They act as if the person they are speaking to is the most important person in the world.
The most likable people use conversations as an opportunity to learn about another person and give them time to talk.

13. They praise others in a genuine way without being excessive.
"Praise the good traits of others, but don't rub it on where it is not deserved or spread it too thickly," Hill says.

14. They have someone they trust point out their flaws.
Successful people don't pretend to be likable; they are likable because they care about their conduct and reputation. Having a confidant who can be completely honest with them allows them to continue growing.

Source: http://www.businessinsider.com/habits-of-exceptionally-likable-people-2014-5

August 11, 2014

Ant #275. Make love or make sex?

Typical conversation about my personal life.
Let's make it as Q&A and make things clear.

Q: When did you have sex for the last time?
A: Long time ago.

Q: Why?
A: Because I'm single.

Q: But don't you wanna have sex?
A: I want, I love sex.

Q: So why don't you find somebody?
A: Because I don't want "somebody", I want the one.

Q: But we cannot live without sex.
A: Depends on what you call sex.

Q: Sex is a connection of two (or more) persons.
A: To me, sex is a connection of two (and only two) souls. Otherwise it's a masturbation via other's bodies. Sex must be a continuation of relationship. Like when your partner touches you and you all start shaking. And I prefer to call it "love". I always say that sex only can be wonderful with a person that you're dying to be together even with no sex.


Ant #274. The past.

Weird.
All the people say that they wouldn't like to change anything in their past.
They say that this is how they live and they don't regret on anything.

Ok, good. But...
We all do mistakes. We accept them, deal with them and they leave behind.
But wouldn't you like to remove the shit out of your life?
Wouldn't you like to undo what you've done or say what you haven't said?

I swear I'd like to change a lot in my past. And who knows, maybe my life would be different. Or maybe it would be the same, but I wouldn't feel sorry.


July 28, 2014

Ant #273. Russian heart.

Argentinians told me many times that russians are kinda cold people.
I responsibly say that it's false!

Maybe we don't show our feelings to much on public, but when we are alone in a private place we are the hottest on Earth. We open up and give everything we have, all our love and passion. We know how to set up fire between two persons. In love, we are much more dedicated than anyone else. We can fight for love till the last breath. We never give up! 

We put the spiritual above the material. We know how hard is to find a true love and we always worship it.

Whoever reads this... If one day you find a russian partner, hug him and never let him go!

July 26, 2014

Ant #272. The greatest.

Can anybody explain me why all the crazy patriots say the same crap? I'm mostly talking about russian ones.
They say:
- We're getting up from knees!
- We'll fuck America!
- We'll show them all that we're the greatest and they must respect us!
- We rule the world!

And then I ask them... What for? For being the greatest? But it cannot be the aim itself. Like having a lot of money. Money is just a tool. You want money, for example, for buying something and living a rich life. The same here. You wanna be the greatest for... What for?

Why don't you concentrate on economy and social problems instead of looking for enemies?

July 11, 2014

Ant #271. Putin in Argentina.

En las próximas horas el Presidente de Rusia, Vladimir Putin, visitará Argentina. En la actualidad Rusia es uno de los más de 70 países que penalizan la diversidad sexual. En junio de 2013 la Duma (Parlamento Ruso) aprobó la denominada "Ley Federal contra la propaganda homosexual" que restringe gravemente la libre expresión de las orientaciones sexuales e identidades de género. Sumate a la Federación Argentina LGBT y digamosle juntas y juntos a Putin: nuestro amor NO es propaganda.

В ближайшие часы Президент России Владимир Путин посетит Аргентину. В настоящее время Россия - одна из более чем 70 стран, в которых преследуются различные сексуальные предпочтения, отличные от гетеросексуальных. В июне 2013 года Государственная Дума РФ приняла так называемый "Федеральный Закон против пропаганды нетрадиционных сексуальных отношений", который серьезно ограничивает свободное самовыражение людей разных сексуальных ориентаций и половой идентичности. Присоединяйся к Аргентинской Федерации ЛГБТ и давайте все вместе скажем Путину: наша любовь - это не пропаганда!




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Ant #270. Israel vs. Palestine.

I'm sorry, but I'm tired of this shit.
Last few days I was watching many people reposting pictures of killed people in Palestine. You can say that you cannot stand it when people die, and I totally agree. But before blaming Israel you must learn at least something about this conflict.

I have a niece and a few relatives who live there. I also have many friends there. Moreover, I've been there a few times. So may I say something? Thank you!

Have you ever heard about HAMAS organization and that they are not calm until Israel is destroyed?
Did you know that all the countries around Israel support Palestine in this war giving them weapons, food and other humanitarian assistance?
Did you know that meanwhile Palestine is making plans about destroying Israel, israeli government is giving them electricity, water, food, medicines etc FOR FREE?

Now about the war itself...
Past few days Palestine sent to Israel at least 250 bombs and rockets. And only because israeli army is one of the best armies in the world they could avoid victims. Anybody of you posted something about this? Or about people having 15 seconds to find a shelter? You don't know how it feels when your niece messages you that she's all right, she found a good shelter and sitting there along with other people and it seems like explosions are really close to the place she lives.

Then Israeli army looks for rocket installations on palestinian territory to destroy them. But the point is that Hamas terrorists make them on the roofs of hospitals or on the backyards of schools or inside living districts. Coz the only thing they want is that more their own people die so they can show them on TV and say how terrible Israel is.

But even though before israeli army starts shooting, they send a few planes which drop above Palestine information lists with time and places where Hamas will be attacked, so peaceful people could find a shelter. But they don't give a damn, they need pictures.

One man said... "If palestinians loved their children more than they hate israeli ones, this war would stop a long time ago."

There are lots of palestinian arabs living in Israel and not being killed, discriminated or whatever. They live a good life, they work, build families, go to the same places where jewish people go.

Hamas "protect" palestinians from "horrible" israeli army and palestinians die. But where no one protects them (in Israel), nobody dies. Isn't it strange?

Thanx for attention!


June 26, 2014

Ant #269. Get out, yankees!

Last night while I was walking across the city I saw probably the most disgusting and ignorant thing that I've ever seen here in Argentina. The whole wall with posters saying "Get out, yankees! Get out, vultures!"
For a moment I couldn't believe my eyes. I took a picture and continued walking.
The organization that released these posters is called "Movimiento Evita" and is pro-government and pro-Kirchner.

I came home and in my head there was the only one thought... Am I still in Russia or what? What the hell happened with a democratic and tolerant country built exclusively by foreigners that came here a few centuries ago?

And suddenly I remembered...
"Economic markets are collapsing, people all over the world are suffering and people are afraid and what happens when people are afraid? They become intolerant. They start pointing the finger at other people. They say "You are the reason! You are the problem! You are to blame! Get out!" The enemy is not out there... The enemy is within!"
The woman was damn right when she first said it almost 2 years ago. This is what I see now in the place where I live.

I don't know if those people who are responsible for posters are just covering themselves with the name of Eva Peron or they really follow her lessons, but I'm pretty sure Evita would never approve this act of discrimination and ignorance. She was teaching all argentinians how to love each other, how to show their compassion, she was fighting for equal right, wasn't she? I'm glad she cannot see how her name is being used nowadays.

I always say it to russians and I guess I'm gonna start saying it to argentinians. Stop blaming other people for the problems you have! We all make our own lives and we are the only ones who are responsible for what happens in our country. If you don't like the situation with human rights, start treating people better. If you don't like the economic situation, vote for another government.

The western society is the one who gave you all the technology to print your shitty posters.
Period.