Ant 234. Throwback.

I spent a wonderful awesome fun weekend in a small city in the center of Argentina.
With lots of friends who I haven't seen for a long time, a pair of them lives in Israel, others not in BsAs, so we don't see each other frequently.

Everything was perfect except of one thing: the city itself.

It's the city where I went with "him" for the first time.
Such a throwback.
Wherever I went, everything reminded me about him.
Here we ate ice-cream, here we had some rest, here we took a picture while I was grabbing his balls...

If I knew it will be so painful, I wouldn't go there.
It's hard to smile when you feel like crying.

Ant #233. Merry Xmas! Vol. 2.

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Ho! Ho! Ho!

I know it's a bit late, but late is better than never!

So as I said, on jan 7 there was Christmas for orthodox christians in Russia, and all my religious friends and my family were celebrating it!

So Merry f*cking Christmas! ^_^ 

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Ant #232. Lonely people.

In my life I met many people and I discovered one interesting thing: the best of them are usually lonely!

They are charismatic, openminded, good educated, they have a strong look but with a piece of sadness behind their eyes.

They are looking for "their" people: for talking, for travelling, for loving or making a family.

And when they do a wrong choice they suffer harder, they close inside and stop contacting other people. But every time they burn down, they resurge... from the ash... being much stronger, much better... and start everything from the beginning.

They refuse all the stereotypes, social diseases, nobody can push them to do or to think anything.

They are looking for someone who can make them feel calm. And by the "calm" they don't mean a life without controversies, arguments, adrenaline or crazy emotions. They mean a life with a person who they can trust as themselves, with no fears, with no limits.

Even the strongest person needs to feel beloved.

Ant #231. To-do-in-2014 List.

OK!
In 2014 I want:

• Visit Brazil,
• Visit Peru,
• Visit Mexico,
• Visit the North of Argentina,
• Go to Russia to see my family,
• Find a new interesting job,
• Start studying (doesn't matter what),
• Pass driving licence exams,
• Save at least US$5000 for a future Madonna's tour,
• Be happy and loved.

Let's see what I'll make real till 31 of december of 2014!

;-) 

Ant #230. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Ant #229. Good-bye, 2013!

Yes, this is the end of 2013.
"Finally" or "naaaaaaw, so sad"?
How about you, guys?
Was it good or not so?

To me it was... I still don't know actually. I'm typing this letters and I have no f*cking idea about atmosphere of following text.

Well, this year was... interesting. Yes, interesting! Full of life events, crazy changes, storm of emotions positive and negative.

If you know me personally, you definitely know what happened to me in 2013, so there's no need to talk about it again and again. Let's better talk about what I've learned.

-> We must fight our fears. Anything we want to do or to get is much easier than we think. We just need to believe in ourselves and follow our dreams.

-> Sometimes those who say they are our friends are not. And sometimes help comes from those who (according to your thoughts) would never do anything for you. Look clearly, open your mind and give people chances to show who they really are.

-> I stopped being ashamed of myself. I no longer pretend to be who I'm not. And this is such a great feeling, so comfortable inside, so relaxing. I am who I am, get over it!

-> I saw once again how fragile my heart is. I changed my whole life for a love, but I've been thrown away. And that was damn painful. The worst experience ever. And I promise it will never happen again. None bitch is worth my tears. I lock my heart and drop the key into Pacific Ocean. Ciao!

-> It's hard to forgive... I can forgive anything but betraying. I know it's not good, but I can't fight myself. Every time I see someone who hurt me the flame of hate inside of me fires up again. It burns my chest. And I only calm down when this person goes away.

Well, you see... It comes out kinda bittersweet.
But believe me or not, I think it was a good year. I wouldn't like to live it up once again, but I also wouldn't skip it.

Any experience is always experience!

The "Happy New Post" I will write tomorrow!

Ant #228. Dad.

Today is my dad's 65th birthday!

I cannot celebrate it with my family like I couldn't celebrate my mom's b-day coz I'm on the other side of the planet, but of course I have called him to wish him all the best!

My relationships with him never were easy, he has some issues, so do I. 

But it's just because we are too similar. 

If you wanna know who's Mr. Dad, look at me. He's strict, strong, serious and knows exactly what he wants. And if I ever will be a father, I wanna be like him. 

He always gives me the best advices and never ask me silly questions about the weather or what I've eaten. You know, the crap that all moms want to know! )))))

So... Happy birthday, dad! ;-)