September 13, 2012

Ant #118. Hunger.

That's what I feel now. An emotional hunger.

Inside of me there is an ocean of unspent tenderness, passion and love. And I want somebody to drown in it. I wanna feel like I'm the one and the only. I need a beautiful killer that will shoot me straight in my heart.

I've been alone for too long and I'm afraid to forget how it feels to be loved. I hate myself for what I'll say now, but I'm tired of being lonely.
Yeah, it sounds pathetic, I know... But what can I do?!


  1. I know how you feel, and at times its hard to not feel lonely when you see everyone around you is loved by another.

    But always remember that someone is out there somewhere waiting for you and fate will eventually let you two meet 8)


  2. Now that you know what you want, you'll have a better chance of finding it.

  3. The pleasure of a good companion always comes when you least expect it.

  4. Hitting bottom emotionally has always been the turning point for me. I only opened up to love from people and "my higher power" when I was exhasuted and fed up.

    Words are powerful (ask np). By declaring aloud that I was open to recieve love and return love, stuff shifted in me. And rather than being a magnat for misery, I attracted love by loving.

    It was not a one shot deal, thoughts procede emtions, so by re-program how I think(everything is connected),I slowly changed how I felt and related to others.

  5. It doesn't sound pathetic at all. Beautifully, if sadly, put.

  6. With the ability to express and understand yourself like that, I doubt you will be lonely for long.