Ant #27. Fear of sleeping.

From recent time I'm afraid to fall asleep, and I don't know what to do with it.
My subconsciousness shows me pictures killing me. Oh, this is so tough.

Every night I close my eyes I'm thinking about what will I see for this time: my broken dreams or my future full of darkness, my ex or my loneliness, the sky or the hell.

It's like a russian roulette: you never know, will you wake up happy or will you dream to never wake up again?

What a silly game.