Nobody says that to love is easy.
Nobody says that there's no suffering.
Nobody says that there won't be problems.
Nobody says that there won't be misunderstandings.
Nobody says that YOU must be perfect.
Nobody says that I am perfect.
We all make mistakes, and it's not a cause to give up! Nobody is perfect!
Let's imagine that you are an open gay/lesbian, living in Russia, you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, you live together as a family, probably one of you has a child (own, not adopted).
Your DUTIES (kinda fair, I would say):
- you have to pay all the taxes and fees;
- if you're a boy (18-27 years old), you have to serve in army, no one gives a f*ck about your sexual orientation;
- you have to pay rents;
- you have the same rules of traffic regulation;
- you have to pay lots of insurances (medical, social, etc).
In other words you have to do all those things that all the society does.
But what's about RIGHTS?
- no marriages or officially recognized partnerships;
- if any tragedy happens to me and I'll be in coma, my boyfriend won't have a right to ask doctors to switch off my life support system;
- if I die, my boyfriend will need to adopt my child, but he definitely will be rejected, because in Russia single persons cannot adopt a baby, only married ones can, and no ones gives a f*ck that my boyfriend was raising our child for years and has been called "Dad";
- we cannot get a special/discounted credits in bank for buying an apartment, only traditionally married couples can get "family" credits;
- we'll have a lot of problems with heritage, coz even I put my boyfriend's name in a will as the only one heir, my relatives will be able to sue him and get everything, he will get nothing...
And I can continue!
Maybe you say that it happens in many countries, I agree, but...
A few days ago russian government passed a law about so-called "Anti-gay propaganda".
What is this law talking about?
Quote: "Prohibited are all activities focused on uncontrolled spread in any public way any kind of information that could harm the health, moral and spiritual extention of teenagers, including the forming a distorted view of social equivalence of traditional and non-traditional marriage."
Penalty is about $170.
In other words, you cannot say to your child that gays/lesbians/bisexuals/transgenders are normal people.
Last week friday one of popular TV hostes offically came out during his live tv-show. On monday he was fired.
On wednesday one school teacher of biology (straight, married, having 2 children) took a part in a rally against this law. Next day he was fired.
Our politicians think that gays are sick, have some brain problems and dangerous for society (probably they were talking about themselves). And they don't give a f*ck that WHO (World Health Organisation) has excluded "homosexualism" out of the list of illnesses many many years ago, and Russia also signed this document.
Can you please tell me how can I live in the country that is full of ignorant idiots?
Today I got Blackberry phone for free and tried to use it, but...
I'M GIVING UP! Blackberry f*cking SUCKS!!!
I don't understand how people can use it! It looks like phones back to 90's, buttons, buttons, menues, menues, texts, texts... Visualization is awful! Siemens A35???
Facebook and Wwitter are so disgusting and uncomfortable for using. No Skype, no good grafic editor, no gifboom and instagram (even if I don't use it), tumblr isn't free, no VK (russian biggest social network), no blogspot.... And I can continue!
The screen is tiny, touch-button (or whatever it is) always moves slowly or skip the whole screen. Wi-Fi is extremely slow, while my network is up to 90MB/sec and all my devices run as fast as speed of light.
I'm done with this shit! I'm coming back to my iPhone!
Gosh, I cannot believe it.
3 years since I first thought I had to visit New York and I've finally booked the flight.
To say I'm excited is to say nothing! ^_^
New York
My flight is in 10 days and I'm going there just for a weekend, so I don't have a time for a bullsh*t!
Allright, New Yorkers, I need your advices!
Where to go?
What to see?
Which clubs to visit?
Shopping?
Sightseeing?
Madonna places?
Aaaaaarrrrgh! I cannot put thoughts together!
That's what my friend told me:
"Times Square..... Central Park..... The 9-11 memorial, .... some museums, there are many cool museums..... nightlife.... some clubs......"
Did he miss something else?
Ah, and accommodation!
Anybody knows some hotels (not hoStels) at Manhatten with a good prices?
And the last questions, New Yorkers!
Who wanna meet me?
Imagine that you met someone special, but you have a flight back home in a few days.
Sad, right? Painful, right?
When I go abroad, I usually switch on the "Snow Queen" mode. It helps me to stay safe. I lock my heart and go aboard of a plane. Especially when I go very far, I try to be friendly, but kinda cold. You know what I mean? I don't allow anybody to flirt with me, I refuse all the temptations.
That's what my rules are.
But my last trip to South America all my protection crashed.
I fell in love so badly!
I was resisting so desperately, but couldn't fight my feelings! So I gave up!
But anyway I had to return to my home.
So now we have 7-hours time difference, 13500 km distance between us and a huge bright sincere love!
Crazy, isn't it?
But I'm happy anyway!
It's better to know that there's someone special in the world that loves you, than to be alone.
Even if we cannot wake up together, my feelings give me a strenght to live, to move on with my life, to change everything for us, to destroy the borderlines, time, distances.
And my love only continues growing up, like a flower inside of me.
It hurts so much when you love someone and cannot even touch him/her, but trust me it hurts even more when your heart is an ice cube!
This year I decided to go to mountains for skiing.
I never did it before!!!
I started from shopping. I went to sport store, and there was a disaster #1.
I thought I needed just a few goods, but at the end I bought: pants, jacket, slim thermal underwear, warm socks, gloves... And I had to buy much more, but didn't have more money )))
Disaster #2 was our hotel, but it's a long story, let's skip it. )))
Hmmmm... There was something good in it, I met an american couple there, great boy and girl!
My first day of skiing was a disaster #3. It was much harder than I was expecting!
But in the end I fell in love with montains!!!
And I think I'm gonna continue my trainings! ^_^
So... I don't even know what to say.
Last New Year post (Ant #14) I was crying and complaining.
This year everything changed!
So before I say something about 2013, I'd like to take a look on 2012.
How was it?
It was crazy! I had lots of fun, I got amazing impressions with MDNA Tour, I traveled so many places, I met so many people. But the most important is that I reloaded my consciousness and found love!
I didn't become richer in material way, but I became much richer in emotional way! I've learned how to open my heart to people that are really worth it. I've learned how to find 1 real person in millions of fakes. I've learned how to see the real feelings only by putting my hand on a pulse.
So for 2013 I have a great dream!
I cannot tell you now about it, coz I want it to come true!
Instead of this I wanna wish you all a wonderful year, I wish that this year will give us what we deserve, I want us to follow our dreams and go ahead!
